It is Sunday early evening and we just returned home. The surgery went very well with no complications, but I had a couple set backs in the recovery process and needed an extra night at the hospital. The experience was much more difficult than I anticipated, and it is a lot to take in. I am deeply grateful for the close circle of friends and supporters who helped me get through this enormously challenging weekend.
I remained fairly calm before the surgery. When I became shaky, Cliff and my support team were there to give me Reiki, hold my hand and keep me grounded. The surgical team helped me feel calm and confident. Post surgery I slept for a couple hours in the recovery room and woke up very shaky and weak. Once in my room, I received more Reiki, and my close circle of women friends came and sang for me.
Cliff let me know that Dr. Kebria was very happy with how the surgery went. Of course for full results we have to wait for the pathology reports. But they did section and biopsy a small part of the uterus, and the doctor reported that he did not see the aggressive type of cancer in that area. Cliff said that Dr. Kebria seemed very optimistic. I am trying to keep my mind steady, knowing that further treatment is likely to be needed. But this news is still very positive.
Saturday I was able to take three short walks around the floor. My pain was never beyond about a 3 out of 10, and was more like a 2 most of the time. The catheter came out at about 11:00 am, and they said I needed to be able to urinate within 7 hours in order to be released. At 6:30 pm I was able to go, but I did not produce enough urine, so the catheter went back in and that determined that we would spend another night. I think it was for the best, since I still felt depleted and in need of professional care.
I anticipated waking up Sunday morning, taking a walk, getting the catheter out, peeing and going home. But that was not the story. From about 6:30 – 9:30 am I was severely nauseous. I think it was a combination of anesthesia, pain medication and very little food. The first anti-nausea drug did not work, so they tried some other options. Once those drugs kicked in and I had eaten some oatmeal and miso soup, I felt better by about 10:00 am. It was a rough three hours – very uncomfortable and discouraging. The doctors also felt I needed more IV fluids, so I felt as if I was going backwards. Even so, I was able to take two walks, and definitely was moving a little more easily.
At around 1:00 pm, the catheter was removed again, and they filled my bladder with saline solution to see if I could retain the fluid for an hour and then void. At 2:00 pm – success! That was the main pre-requisite for coming home. Still the saline content of my blood is off, so they want me to drink less plain water, and more drinks containing electrolytes. I’ll be using Emergen-C, not Gatorade!
I have seldom been in a hospital in my life, and I was truly amazed at the miracle of modern medicine. Our room was lovely and I received excellent, compassionate care. I now have Cliff and my dear friend Barbara nursing me and waiting on me at home. I look forward to a nice week! I will be enjoying delicious meals prepared by fabulous friends, watching movies, reading, playing piano, and walking.
Even at the low points, I felt completely enveloped and protected by the love of friends, family, and the Universal Divine Spirit. In this crisis, I have been deeply touched by the love I have received. Of course it makes us feel good to know that we are loved. But this experience has also helped me see more clearly how compassionate and loving people truly are, and that my situation has given them a chance to express that fundamental nature. The Dalai Lama has expressed many times that our basic human nature is kind, compassionate, loving and caring. I have never been surer of that than I am today.